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Sunday, September 01, 2013

Final decision had make....

When to collect my stuff at his house, and yes.. He is home too.

Lying at the bed playing his ipad !

Without any thoughts, i just grab all my stuff and all my personal items,many memory just flash back in my head, but i have to hold on my tears and try to be strong. Keep telling myself, " well he is the one end up cheating on you, and going two timer !!"

My heart is like thousand of needle poking, but can he feels???

I keep telling myself, he is having fun there, and i m sad here, crying non stop for him, izzit worth it??

So i make the decision, to go out have fun.....

Yup, recently making my weekend in clubbing. Having fun with my friends, numb myself with alcohol, numb my heart with beautiful music and crazy fun.

Knew alot of nice people...

Maybe i just needs a period of time to heal my pain.

To make me feel better, only way make myself busy, party, alcohol.... Is the best suitation.

Anyone can even share with me, how can i overcome??

The best thing is end of this september, we suppose to plan to go for a hoilday. Leave had being fixed. I cant remove or change.... How???

Saw his facebook status, asking people who wants to company him on leave to overseas.....

My heart just sink....

Am i really just a rubbish to him already....?

Am i just a.....

No matter what i done, i will never do anything so hurtful like what he is doing now...

Everything that he is doing, really just cut my heart....

Why????

I think i just need time to heal....

Or else i think i m going crazy soon....

So any friends wanna party let me know, beep me man...

I have to really thank to this korean friend of mine who always company me to party!!! Thanks kim :)

P.S : thanks for giving me so much pain and hurt..

the Romeo&the beauty.