Sunday, November 29, 2009
Missing her very much..
i really hope we are back to normal
and things go back to last time
the crazyness and the wildness
Now like whatever i do or went
lets me remember her...
we use to went many many places 2gether
i just miss her that much..
really cnt wait 6 DEC..
i can meet her and see her..
hope i can hug her very tight..
but i dont think can..
she might even treat me as stranger..
thinking of less hang out and msg her..
makes me feel like i losing her MY BESTIE..
makes me feel she will hate me
and treat me stranger..
arhhh...just miss her sooo much..
how wish to tell her i miss her damn much damn fucking much
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Today..i pass by the coffee shop that i and my GF use to eat..
i saw butter prawn..
and her face ,her name just appear in my mind..
cnt forget both of us love that dish..
everytime our pay in we will both go eat that..
and we will complain how big is the prawn and is nice or not..
just miss hanging out with her and chill with her
wondering how is she..
try to msg her no reply..
we promise to watch new moon 2gether..
and i dont know is still goig to happen??
i just miss her that much..
wish talking and crazy laughing with her..
miss playing game with her ''time crisis''
where both of us will like crazy calling each other
''quickly quickly dont die dont die''
i just miss that time..
*my dear GF where are u??i miss u freaking much..
hope u forgive me..
knowing u are not there for me just killing me..
JUST KILLING ME*
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Title: MISSING YOU NOW(michael bolton & kenny)
I talk to you but its not the same as touchin' you
And every time you whisper my name, I wanna run to you
We'll be together, it won't be long, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and its hard to be strong
CHORUS:
Baby 'cause I'm missing you now
And its drivin' me crazy
How I'm needin' you baby
I'm missing you now
Can't wait till I'm alone with you
To show you how I'm missing you now
Wishin' you were here by my side is all that I can do
Got my arms around my pillow at night, they should be
holdin' you
Thought I was stronger, how could I know, how could
I know
I can't take this much longer, its so hard on my soul
CHORUS:
Baby I just can't wait, till I see your face
Chase away this loneliness inside
When you're close to my heart, right here in my arms
Then and only then, will I be satisfied
I'm missing you now
We'll be together, it won't be long, it won't be long
But it feels like forever, and its hard to be strong
Given by( Blurblur)
telling me how much he miss me
LOVE U MY DEAR
=Janice(DUMDUM) signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Title: FLIGHTLESS BIRD (Iron & wine)
Is a great song,giving this song to my deardear..
I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere
Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming
Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream
Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down
=Janice (DUMDUM) signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
To my deardear:
Listen to what u say..
I cnt say anything,
just can to there to listen,
and help you out,this is now my job as a GF for you
maybe if you are tired you need a place to rest and relax
i m here for you...
maybe things just came all in a sudden for you that you cant even take it,
but is your choice how you want to handle,
this is what i can do and say...
NO MATTER what you are always in my heart and mind..
Just pity that u had a big project to carry on to..
Hang on deardear now i m here for you <3
Getting to know you more
and LOVE you more=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
METEOR SHOWER...
Ysteday i saw it..
is soo beautiful,
i had make three wishes,
and is secret...
is a beautiful nite..
the sky is full of stars and clouds,
enjoying guessing wat is the shape of the clouds are making in the sky..
full of fun,love,and joy..
had a great NITE..
care=concern=LOVE
seeing shooting star
having u with me
<3
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
I m losing a frenz of mine..
I didnt know that i had change that much,
after knowing what my GF told me..
i didnt mean that..
i m not gone..i m still here..
*babe i m sorie..
i m not gone,as what u say me..
i m still here..
is just maybe the way i handle and do
is wrong..
sorie for that..
forgive me..
i dun want to lose a bestie like you..
no matter what u are still a bestie that i will not forget..
and a bestie that i always want to turn to..
a bestie that i always want to crazy with..
a bestie that i ever treasure..
a bestie that no one can replace..
i m sad that u say that phrase to me..
i m..really..
i just dun want us to end our frenship like that..
sorie babe..that i disappointed u..
forgive me..*
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Things seems well for me..
trying to share something here..
having someone who treasure u is the best..
at least u know who you are and ur position in that person heart..
then had been trying to get the person attention on you,
and the person just treat you as a dust..
knowing that a person who loves you and treasure you alot is willing to do
anything for you..
even if you are in trouble..
the person will try his/her very best to help you..
and even get in time there for you,
even just a minutes or second..
knowing that the person is trying to do his/her best to cheer you up
even you are in deep moody mood..
and the person will even try his/her best to bring you to a place
where you can really relax and pour all your tears out..
the most important thing is the person is willing to accept
every single weakness,bad,good,ugly,or unclean matter,
thats the really person that will be there with you forever..
wish that it will be u
care+concern=LOVE
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
= I'm Only Me When I'm With You=
Friday night beneath the stars
In a field behind your yard
You and I are painting pictures in the sky
And sometimes we don't say a thing
Just listen to the crickets sing
Everything I need is right here by my side
And I know everything about you
I don't wanna live without you
I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you
Just a small town boy and girl
Living in the crazy world
Trying to figure out what is and isn't true
And I don't try to hide my tears
The secrets, all my deepest fears
Through it all nobody gets me like you do
And you know everything about me
You say that you can't live without me
I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me when I'm with you
When I'm with anybody else
It's so hard to be myself
And only you can tell
That I'm only up when you're not down
Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground
It's like no matter what I do
Well, you drive me crazy half the time
The other half I'm only trying
To let you know that what I feel is true
And I'm only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I'm only me when I'm with you
With you, oh, yeah
This music just bring my life upp :)
caring+concern=LOVE
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
My parent is back..
and back in full of sadness and hurt..
didnt want to disturb my dad as he had lost his mum..
In a morning had a talk with my mum..
and found out my dark secret..
and started to hate all my auntie..
found out that none of auntie actually really care my granny
and they even cnt wait her to be gone..
my mum had been busy over there with the funeral
cause no one handle those things
my mum when there the first thing was to collect my granny body
@ the hospital..
with my dad and my 3rd uncle..
none of my auntie was there at all..
imagine your daughter was not there to collect ur body..
is was like sooo freaking sad..
my granny passed away @ the hospital none of her children and grandchild is there..
is kind of sad..
now even collect her body only few of them come..
i wish i over there...
my granny actually passed away when she was having a procedure
CHEST TUBE INSERTION..
as i know that she had been having water retention
but did not know that the water had when in to her lungs too
so actually on THUR my granny actually when for a check up..
and the FUCKING doctor told my granny that
she had water in her lungs
and is very serious..
and wants to put in a tube to her lungs right away to get it out..
the FUCKING doctor ask one of my aunite to sign a document
and didnt even say what documeny was it..
and never even tell what will happen after inserting the chesttube
and will my grandma will had any risk of it
the FUCKING doctor never even say anything
and get ready the procedure for my granny
end up
when the tube insert..my granny suddenly cnt breath..
and cause of her breathing problems
complication starts..
her heart stop
and she bleed alot..
and there she gone..
and she was diagnose puenomthora..
if i was there i think i will not let my granny do this porcedure..
as her age i dont think she cnt take this procedure at all
in singapore..
age above 80 we dont encourage CHEST TUBE INSERTION
at all..
and if we need we will discussed with the family memeber
and explain to them too
but @ malaysia..
they didnt at all..
because of that procedure i lost my granny..
i feel so shame after knowing this
i m working in this specialist
and i saw many chest tube insertion
and the risk after inserting..
and saw many elderly pass away cause of this too..
but did not know that it will happen to my granny in return..
and i cnt even see her the last time..
and after collecting my granny body
my mum called up my aunties
and found out that they all will at my granny house..
is kind of weird why all of them will there..
soo after getting ready the funeral..
my mum went to my granny house
and found out that the house was in a total mess
her clothes will everywhere
and her stuff was like everywhere too..
and the most shock thing was all my granny jewellery was gone
only left money..
soo my mum ask my aunties where is my granny jewellery
they all say my granny took it and sell it before her death
is was kind of weird..cause my granny will not do that
so my mum actually went to ask all my uncles that whether they knows about all this
and my uncles will shock to heard that..
and all my uncles and my parents know what is going on already
i m kind of angry when i heard this incident..
after that they found out actually after my granny dead
they(my auntie) went to my granny house to search for all the money and jewellery
my granny left..
and they took it..
WTF man..
my granny just went to deep sleep and they just...
and the most F thing was they denied
that my granny never left anything at all only a few some of money
WTF man..
i knows that my granny will not do that
she promise to give me and my sister a pair of sister necklace
how will she forget and sell it off..
and my granny will not sell her stuff even how poor she is..
why why must money??
why must cause of money my aunties turn to a different person
even my beloved auntie..
why money can brings up everyone true colour..
and cause of money they turn to be mean and evil??
why must be that??
cause of money and lie
i start to hate all my aunties..
why?
*come on things not belongs to guys give back to people
dont be a greedy people
all of us know that
my granny confirm got left a pic of things to us to keep as a memory
and as you people been greedy for so long cnt u guys stop the greedyness
when my grandma was around how u guys treat her??
some cursing her
some scold her
some kick her like a ball dont let her stay any u guys house
and now she dead u guys still wants to take her things
when she around u guys treat her mean..i close my eye..
shes gone u guys still want to take her stuff
i dont thinkmu guys deserve that*
even the lovely caring auntie of mine
had also turn to another person that i dont even know..
After the funeral..
it was quite happy that all my four uncles included my dad
had finally be together and sit down had a talk..
as all of them actually been seperated and busy in there own stuff and family
is kind of happy to see that the four brothers are actually
having a great talk and a great time together..
hope my granny in the air can see that and she is happy to see that...
but for my aunties
i have nothing to say
as i cnt actually voice out anything
cause no matter what this are adult problem that i cnt even step up to say anything
just know that karma will fall on them..
just so dissapointed to all my aunties..
really cnt beileve this are all my aunties..
knowing all this stories from my mum
is petty shock..
* granny may u rest in peace*
caring+concern=LOVE
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Had been busy..
going out with a group of friendz..
they had make me laugh and cheer me up..
especially one of them...heehee..
ysterday went to orchard..
see the lights up..
sooo enjoyable..
2onlo back to work..
hope everything will be fine...
thanks
thanks for spending time with
me
thanks<3
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
I MISS MY NURSING LIFE IN SCHOOL...
MISS THOSE CRAZY TIME I EVER HAD..
I MISS THEM
the Romeo&the beauty.
leaving with peace..
My grandma had went to the other world to find my grandpaa..
they finally get togther again..
after separated for 6 to 7 years..
around 5mintues ago..
my mum called me..
mum: hey girl..mummy at your ganny place here
me: mummy how is everything there??
mum: girl..your ganny is sleeping very peacefully in the wooden box
me: mummy i want to go..at least i go can sent her before she cremation
mum: girl..why u dont understand we dont want you to come cause we know you confirm will break down like last time your grandpa that time
me: mummy of course i will break down but at least i can see her the last time
mum: okie girl stop it i dont want to talk to you much already,you should understand why we dont let you come,and want to let you know that your ganny will love you forever
(my mum hang off the phone)
my tears just drop non stop again..
my mum wanted to cheer me up
but end up is just making me more sad..
and i just dont know what to say..
but then i think i have to be strong..
i beileve my grandma will always beside me
seeing me and love me forever..
but this time she will be with my grandpa seeing me..
I LOVE U GRANDMA..
BYE GRANDMA..
YOU ARE THE BEST GRANDMA I EVER HAD
I WILL NOT FORGET YOU
YOU WILL BE ALWAYS IN MY HEART
LOVE U
hey..thanks to this special frenz
of mine
thanks for your cheering up
thanks''special fren''
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Friday, November 06, 2009
IS A SAD AND SO SUDDEN DAY FOR ME
My grandmaa pass away..
is so sudden and shock to me..
i thought it was a joke..
WHY WHY..
why cnt she wait for me..
why??
i plan two more weeks go see her visit her..
but then end up..
i cnt even see her last time..
and talk to her..
now i have to talk to her while her eyes is close..
and she is lying in the wooden box
why?
i m going to miss her..
miss her voice and her talk..
my Phone was like ringing non stop when i m working..
i thought who was calling me non stop..
end up is my my mum..
and i called back and i heard this news..
is like shock of my life..
how could this happen..
I wish all is a dream..
all is just a dream..
when i wake upp..
please...
*grandma wake up..please wake up..i have many many things to talk to u..
i have many many things to show u..
i want to go exercise with u every morning..
i willing to massage you till you fall asleep..
i willing to talk to you till you fall asleep like we use to before..
i willing to play majong with you till you are tired..
i willing to be the loser and you be the winner..
grandmaa..grandmaa
i have not show u i wear the NURSE uniform..
i have not tell you how my working life ever seen i start working..
grand maa..wake up..stop sleeping..
dont be a lazybone..
wake up stop sleeping..
wake up see mee..
grand maa...wake up..
grandmaa you remember you always will fan me till i sleep..
now i want you to fan mee..
grandmaa i want now..
you say what i want you will do it for mee
now i want u to wake up and fan me..
i want now..
grandmaa do u you heard that...
grandma...*
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Had been busy attending many many party...
recently attend
- working pals party
- GF bday party
- HALLOWEEN PARTY
is was soo fun..
dressing up in a sleeping wear..
really makes me want to sleep on that day..
Had been make myself busy..
and now finally take a rest..
and think some things..
settle some issue..
thinking that am i doing things that are rite..
am i hurting myself or hurting anyone..
just dont want to hurt anyone..
i pefer to hurt myself then amyone..
maybe makeing myself busy and dont think anything is the best..
just hide those problems and feeling to myself will do..
yupp..more picturse to update...stay tune..
=Janice signing off=
the Romeo&the beauty.
the Romeo&the beauty.
