Had not being updating for like two years! Oh gosh!!! Well, life has being great , relationship is going smoothly too. Till.... This year in July!! Things became bad and became ugly...
As usual fights, and fights was always not settle nicely. And money issues are in too.
Well, i know partly is my fault...
I m trying to turn things good and holding on strongly onto our relationship. But the other party is letting go soon. I dont wish things just gone like this.....
Well, no communication for three weeks plus close to 4weeks....
As usual me... With tears washing my face every night,wishing things is turning in a good side.
My heart is in pain,i miss him so much... Everything i do, my mind will just flash his image.. Wondering is it happening to him too. Answer is NO!!!!
Do u believe it, he actually check in into FB that he is in clubbing! OMG! I cant believe it! I m sad here and thinking of him, but he is enjoying there!!
Well, to share with u guys why are we kinda in a cold stage!!
I receive a news from a friend of mine, who works at clark quay, he saw him (my bf) hugging another girl walking on the street!!!! And has been seeing him with the same girl around clark quay!!! My heart crys.... I really cant believe it.
I went down to his house of course,to asked him, sometime is better to hear from the persons mouth then listening to outsiders. He didnt admit, till i told him the truth. And he admitted. The least i worried, it happen.i really just cant believe what i heard and the truth.
But do u believe i still believe in him. I know u guys will think why am i so stupid!! I still believe in him! Cause i believe mayb he is just playing around, cause no matter what i trust him. I know u guys will scolded him, stop being foolish and stupid. But this guy i have being with for three years, his character and attitude i knew it very well, he is not this kind of guy.
Do you know, i always wanted to go down to find him at his workplace,but i dont want! Cause i want to give him some space.
Sometime i just wonder, our three years relationship, are they rubbish to him? Are they just nothing to him.....
I have spoken to all of my bestie and girlfriends, they all scolded me. Only one bestie of mine ,nysa, she knows me too well, that she give me her advice and she supported my thinking. Thanks nysa. Thats make us understand why we are that close.
I really wish things can be settle, and everything can start anew for us. I really wish...
I just missed him so much, missed his smell,his voice, his hug,his everything...
I miss him alot....
P.S : i miss you alot, ur image just cant stop appearing in me. I m sorry...
