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Wednesday, July 07, 2010

Finding out some unhappy stuff

I HATE MYSELF of being so super soft hearted
I just cnt bear to hurt people
but end up i got hurt!!

Letting HIM go her bday celebration
Letting HIM take a photo with her
Letting her to attend HIS bday celebration
Letting them have their talks

end up what i get?? get hurts get tears get pain get scolding

Recently i found out that someone msg someone
and
the reply from the other party was nt a great and nice to see

" Her : I havnt exactly slept much but u made my day! thank u lovely."
what the hell man!!! lovely?? made my day??
the next msg from her again

" Her :silly you! its nvr abt the material gifts!and well if i can b a little greedier, i would LOVE to receive a letter from U.to b honest,its my favourite gift. so am i allowed to b greedier??"
what the FUCK? LOVE to receive letter from U??? Favourite Gift??
this makes me more heart pain and heartache
i just cnt breath at all
tears just coming out soon

so i went to toilet to do my crying!!!!

Find out from HIM
and he apologise.
but then he still insist of writing to HER

WTF? i start feeling am i wrong right from the start? giving them chance to meet and talk again? giving them chance to making up?

i keep blame myself i dont,i really dont know what should i do??
I really dont wish HIM to write letter to her
come on that was the past
when SHE was special to u
now is like SHE is NO LONGER that stage already!!!
UNLESS SHE STILL IS....

I start thinking am i the REPLACEMENT of HER???
is SHE still in HIS HEART??
WHO AM I TO HIM??
i keep thinking this..
i m really in a great pain...

* you know how i feels??
you know
this is not the first chance i give u again*

ishurttome
anduarentfeeliingit

=Janice signing off =

the Romeo&the beauty.